Running

I went for a run yesterday. Forgot what it was like to just put on some headphones and just run with no idea of where you are gonna stop and where you are gonna end up. Peace washed over me as I ran through the pain and how tired I was I hit what the world calls a runners high. Now all I can think about is running. My question is why haven't I been doing this all along and why did I ever stop.To work out or not work out? I was in a seven year relationship with a guy who did nothing but work out and yell at me that I never did. Which in return I just didn't feel like I should do it just because he was so rude about it. which brings me to my point. When in life is it ok to call someone fat. I understand that every single women out there goes through the same emotions: I am fat.Does this make me look fat?I didn't work out today and i eat so much.When did life get to the point of not working out because someone made you feel like shit. How did we as single women let idiots make us feel like shit. Who wants to work out when someone is yelling at you? All you want to do is go crawl in a little hole and die because that is the person who is suppose to love you. The person who is suppose to encourage you, not discourage you.

Valentines day

As I walked in to foodland I was amazed at all the men standing around the meat depart looking at meat trying to find the perfect piece of meat to bring home to their sweetheart. Which for all you single ladies this is an event that should not be missed. Does anyone remember Valentines day when you were in grade school? How you were just happy to get cards from everyone and candy? Yeah the cute boy in your class might have giving you some thing special but it didn't matter. All you cared about is that you weren't really having to be in class because there was a party with all your friends. As you grow up your candy turns into flowers and flowers turn into a expensive dinner with sex at the end of the night. Just to say "thank you" for going out of there way. My first question is if man knows that we will put out for cooking us dinner or taking us out to dinner and buying us flowers. Don't you think that they would do it more then just on valentines day and other holidays? Has man really not evolved like women has? Now I am not saying anything bad about men. But you know if a single women want sex all we do is go out buy some sexy underwear and come home. We don't just do it on birthdays or holidays we do it all the fucking time. Because as single women we we enjoy sex. We want men to feel wanted and loved all the time.

Sexless in paradise

 Every one has lost some one that they wish they didn't have to let go. Maybe in letting that person truly go, and realizing that that person was there to teach you how to love another, you will find the right one, the one that will love everything about you down to even your flaws. The one who you never thought would like you. I stood today in the raining thinking about everything I went through to end up right where I am right now. I wondered if I could take it back. Where I would rewind time to have a different end. I realized if I had to  do it all over again. I wouldn't change one thing. I would go through the broke hearts, the lesson that I wish some one just told me, so I didn't do it. Then I realized it made me, it broke me and I still stood. It takes a strong person to realize that every hard thing, every good thing makes you, you. It doesn't break you. It makes you grow to become the person you are suppose to be.